changing my mind....

A pregnant girls allowed to do such things right???
I mean I do it when I order at a restaurant. I'm all set with with a chicken salad and then I see something shiny like mozzarella sticks!
Or I start trying to figure out dinner and all the sudden pizza is the only answer that really makes sense!
So I originally thought I was having one boy and one girl. And I'm going to now say I think it's two girls.
This could be from a variety of reasons leading me in this direction. First, I have my two girl names ready to go and can't for the life of me think of a single boy name. Second, I have a teenage boy at home so I'm seeing boys a little differently right now! Ok, yes people, I have not done teenage girls yet and I know that has to be worse than this but for now this is the only crazy I know! And third, I have all of Makenna's girl clothes still so that would sure be helpful since the double diaper thing is going to break us :)
I'll let you know in 10 days!!! Can't wait!! :)

pregnancy bliss...

I was so sad to think that we could officially be done having babies. To think that I would never feel a baby kick inside of me again or nurse a baby in the wee hours of the morning made my heart hurt. 

So what God did was give me a double dose of all the other things I forgot about :)

Pregnancy Bliss 101...

*the 'morning' sickness that was SO not just in the morning lasting a wonderful 15 weeks 

*the peeing every hour all night long because I'm already as big as I was at 8 months pregnant!

*feeling like everyday I ran a marathon that I was not prepared or conditioned for!

*12 hours of sleep being just not quite enough

*the burping and other air based activity that took over the entire 1st trimester

*the heartburn that left me last week wishing God had skipped the whole 'creating fish day' 

*the pillow that is already wedged between my legs to sleep to keep the stabbing pains in my girl parts to a low roar :)

*packing emergency underwear with me everywhere I go in case I sneeze, laugh, or cough

*being hungry ALL of the time. So hungry that last week I woke up at 4am craving hash browns, thought about them all day, went to Denny's for dinner just for hash browns, and then hovered over the toilet for the rest of the evening. Needless to say I'm over the hash brown thing!

*hemorrhoids.....enough said!

I say all of that to say this...I would do it a hundred times over! 

God is giving me 2 beautiful babies and it's just alot of work helping make 20 fingers and 20 toes :)

I want to remember ALL of it this time with it being the last time I'll experience it. 

That means documenting the good, bad, and ugly so not for a moment will I forget this miracle!

Me at 14 weeks....

It was during this week that we had a huge scare. I started bleeding a lot for 5 very long days. I was sure something was terribly wrong and my heart was in pure anguish. 

Finally after the nurse telling me each and every day 'there is nothing we can do at this point' she finally scheduled me an ultrasound to atleast see what was taking place. 

Oh the joy and relief to see both our beautiful babies doing so amazingly well!

They did find the source to the bleeding. A blood clot that formed next to one of the babies from where the placenta pulled away slightly from the wall of my uterus. 

So lots of rest, no lifting, and pelvic rest for atleast a couple of weeks were the orders. And pray that it didn't remain a continual bleed for the rest of the pregnancy,

 which would put me at all sorts of other risks.

Since then I'm thankful to say we've had no more bleeding, thank you Lord!

Me at 16 weeks...

Yes I'm huge and yes it's alarming. Oh the faces I get when I say I'm 16 weeks... with twins. Which then starts all sorts of questions like "do twins run in your family", "wow..." I get that one a lot, "are these your first" to which ensues all sorts of other questions when I say that I have 3 at home. So I now see why my twin book says it's ok to just lie and say your 7 months along to strangers. So I think it's the way I will go. These strangers don't care and they don't know I've told the story 5 times already. So I will simply grin and say 7 months from here on out :)

April 7th is the magical day that we find out the sexes so stayed tuned for that!!